Goodnight my love

Noted for my energy, which I am now running out of, I am tired.

It’s been quite a while (I can’t keep track of time since Danny and I left Garden Crest) and much has happened.

My beloved wife and companion has died. I was holding her and bent close to her. “Betsy doll, I love you.”

Too weak to talk, she looked at me and smiled. Mustering all the strength she had, she squeezed my hand deeply and exhaled her last breath. With her eyes and mouth open, she left this world.

I closed her eyes and mouth, tears welling up in my eyes, too grief-stricken to say anything to the many people around me. I hurriedly left the room knowing my life will never be the same. It was 4:15 a.m. Sept. 21, 2019. 

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I remembered the words of the Rabbi who married us.

“Till death I you part.” So true. Betty was the only girl I dated, and married. I never had a desire for or wanted anyone else.

I am thankful for the 84 years of marriage we had. Of course, we had our differences, harsh words were spoken, we didn’t talk to each other for a day or so. I could see the sadness on her face. My anger over our disagreement dissipated (over what I can’t even remember). In bed, one or the other of us put our arms around the other and said, “I’m sorry.” Our gesture was never rejected. We fell asleep with our arms around each other.

After Betty’s death, our family talked about having a memorial, but it never happened nor is it necessary. Anyone who knew Betty will remember her. She was sweetness personified. Betty was loved by all who knew her. She was the best. I’m sure there are many “Bettys” in the world. Once she said to me, “Would you marry me again?” (with tongue in cheek). “Absolutely,” I replied.

Without Betty, life has not been the same. I feel an emptiness within me. I miss not holding her soft hand.Betsy doll, wherever you are, on earth or on a star, that’s where I want to be.

I love you. You will always be in my thoughts and my pleasant memories.Goodnight my love.

Author: Morrie Markoff

Centenarian (born in 1914) who lives in Los Angeles, and is also a metal sculpture artist and the Author of "Keep Breathing," available on Amazon.com and other book seller sites.